I'm really happy, I'm really shocked, and bewildered. We are moving! I feel a little aprehensive as if they are playing a joke on us. I can't believe that we will have our own place again for Christmas. I can decorate and stuff. Lani will have her first birthday in her own home. For some reason i want to cry, I can't work out why i feel sad. We have been waiting for nearly a year and moving to the ground floor is only going to bring good things - friends can come over etc, but i feel a bit meh... Maybe its the stress lifting, and revealing how i truly feel; tired and worn out.
We are going to see the new place on Wednesday, and then i am guessing that we get the keys on Friday and then hand our keys in on Monday. We have to clean the carpet but that will be easy (won't it?).
The weekend will be busy, and i need to get a few things. Like Mum's birthday pressie, Barts birthday+Sinterklass pressie. I want to get Mark's parents a christmas/thankyou pressie for putting up with us.
Maybe i will be able to get back to studying dutch which i am annoy that i haven't been doing recently.
I didn't mention last time that Lani is now letting go of things and standing for 20/30 seconds, she walks well holding two hands and quite well with one hand. She will be walking soon i think, well soon-ish. We have booked her booster injections they are in a couple of weeks.
Friday, 23 November 2007
Tuesday, 20 November 2007
November
So here we are nearly another month on and i haven't been keeping this up. The main reason being is that we are at Marks parents and so it's harder to get on etc. Hoping that our christmas present is a new flat away from the noisy upstairs.
So Kayne is doing great, has become a bit more boy-ish, resists things he doesn't want to do. Has a new friend in nursery so it's now a breeze to get him in in the morning. His reading is coming on massively, He is reading different things now, not just books, things like shop signs, the sky information box. If he doesn't get it right he gives a good estimate. I have just bought him some encyclopiedia type books as he is asking questions like 'Where is space?'
Lani will be 11 months in 2 days time. She has seemingly grown up so much in the past week or so. She obviously understands so much. She also knows her own mind. She signs; Where, all gone, hat, clean, milk, clever girl, waves (hello and goodbye), and squeezes her hand in the air for 'press'. She says (in her own way) hiya, mum (mmummm), dad (dada), grandad (ga dad), ta (ta/da), kayne (brrrbrr), no (nuh), bear (bah). She's started doing some 'peg-puzzles'. She some times makes brumming noises when playing with cars. She also has really poor blood circulation, just like me. We have just had an awful week of teething, but still no more teeth.
On the 2nd of December we are going to Paulton's park to see Father Christmas in his winter wonderland, they will get a present and we can go on the rides. It should be good fun. It's just the getting there early that will be the hard bit.
Christmas is coming and we have shopping to do....For just about everyone. I have got a few books for Kayne, but thats just because its easy to buy a few things in one go, and i wanted to get him one about Space.
Got to get Bart a birthday and SinterKlaas pressie. Mum a birthday present, Lani a birthday present.
So Kayne is doing great, has become a bit more boy-ish, resists things he doesn't want to do. Has a new friend in nursery so it's now a breeze to get him in in the morning. His reading is coming on massively, He is reading different things now, not just books, things like shop signs, the sky information box. If he doesn't get it right he gives a good estimate. I have just bought him some encyclopiedia type books as he is asking questions like 'Where is space?'
Lani will be 11 months in 2 days time. She has seemingly grown up so much in the past week or so. She obviously understands so much. She also knows her own mind. She signs; Where, all gone, hat, clean, milk, clever girl, waves (hello and goodbye), and squeezes her hand in the air for 'press'. She says (in her own way) hiya, mum (mmummm), dad (dada), grandad (ga dad), ta (ta/da), kayne (brrrbrr), no (nuh), bear (bah). She's started doing some 'peg-puzzles'. She some times makes brumming noises when playing with cars. She also has really poor blood circulation, just like me. We have just had an awful week of teething, but still no more teeth.
On the 2nd of December we are going to Paulton's park to see Father Christmas in his winter wonderland, they will get a present and we can go on the rides. It should be good fun. It's just the getting there early that will be the hard bit.
Christmas is coming and we have shopping to do....For just about everyone. I have got a few books for Kayne, but thats just because its easy to buy a few things in one go, and i wanted to get him one about Space.
Got to get Bart a birthday and SinterKlaas pressie. Mum a birthday present, Lani a birthday present.
Thursday, 18 October 2007
I'm like a beacon of light
MA says: wanna come here for xmas then i can give you a proper hug for your xmas pressie?
LB says: :P
MA says:something tells me you need one
LB says: :P
MA says: or am i wrong?
LB says: ha na, neva
LB says: you're never wrong
I didn't think i was either, i just have trust the inkling and learn how to find the right person. i need to learn to shield myself too. or atleast get into the habit of it. Although i quite like knowing that someone needs a hug or whatever, it's not really fair and i'm not quick enough to notice the negative emotions coming. After reading some descriptions of empaths,i was rather shocked to find they described me almost exactly.
LB says: :P
MA says:something tells me you need one
LB says: :P
MA says: or am i wrong?
LB says: ha na, neva
LB says: you're never wrong
I didn't think i was either, i just have trust the inkling and learn how to find the right person. i need to learn to shield myself too. or atleast get into the habit of it. Although i quite like knowing that someone needs a hug or whatever, it's not really fair and i'm not quick enough to notice the negative emotions coming. After reading some descriptions of empaths,i was rather shocked to find they described me almost exactly.
Children update
Time for an update methinks.
Lani is 4 days away from being 10months old. I can't believe time has gone so fast! She waves now and also shakes her head, says hi ya! mama, dada, bab ba, ga da, nananana nah, signs milk in a fashion. She cruises and walks when holding your fingers. She eats everything in sight and holds her own bottle. She can be so independant, she doesn't like being left anywhere. She loves to bounce to music and is always smiley and giggles at things.
Kayne, is, well, Kayne. He has learnt to read lots of new words. Has been doing well with writing. We had parents evening yesterday and his teacher said "well we can't move him to yr 1, no school will take him into yr 1" which was funny but kind of heartbreaking in a way. to know that he was already at that level. I find it hard to watch my little boy being so advanced in some ways and to know that there will be a point when he knows that he is different to everyone else. Then again maybe he already does. His teacher is working on getting him to do things that he wouldn't pick himself, like sticking. He is lucky really as he gets a more varied time at nursery than most of the other children. Sometimes he is with the older kids doing things some times he goes with the F1's. I think that that is really good for him, it makes him mix more, and shows that nursery are accomodating him for him not just what he can do.
Lani is 4 days away from being 10months old. I can't believe time has gone so fast! She waves now and also shakes her head, says hi ya! mama, dada, bab ba, ga da, nananana nah, signs milk in a fashion. She cruises and walks when holding your fingers. She eats everything in sight and holds her own bottle. She can be so independant, she doesn't like being left anywhere. She loves to bounce to music and is always smiley and giggles at things.
Kayne, is, well, Kayne. He has learnt to read lots of new words. Has been doing well with writing. We had parents evening yesterday and his teacher said "well we can't move him to yr 1, no school will take him into yr 1" which was funny but kind of heartbreaking in a way. to know that he was already at that level. I find it hard to watch my little boy being so advanced in some ways and to know that there will be a point when he knows that he is different to everyone else. Then again maybe he already does. His teacher is working on getting him to do things that he wouldn't pick himself, like sticking. He is lucky really as he gets a more varied time at nursery than most of the other children. Sometimes he is with the older kids doing things some times he goes with the F1's. I think that that is really good for him, it makes him mix more, and shows that nursery are accomodating him for him not just what he can do.
Sunday, 30 September 2007
The end of the weekend again...
hmmm well, it's the end of september which is scary. Leo went to uni yesterday, she is really not great with home sickness but i hope that for her sake she can stick it out. i guess i must be scary to go some place and know that that is now your home for 6 months. I felt worried when we moved here, but then i still had Mark and Kayne around so i knew i was ok.
Lani has again managed to make herself sick through crying, she gets herself in such a state. So no more leaving her. Well she wasn't really being left, she was in the buggy and she fell asleep. She woke up and was crying and i thought if i gave her a few minutes that she would fall asleep again, but she started coughing and Mark came in to pick her up and as he did she was sick into the buggy. She can stand for a coupld of seconds by herself now too.
I'm in a dilemma over getting Kayne tested.
We might be moving to a ground floor flat, the housing officer is coming to see our flat on Thursday - just to make sure we haven't trashed this one, and then when one comes up we can have it.
I've been learning dutch for a couple of weeks. I'm actually starting to 'get it'. I didn't make much progress with the book from the library, and the web page i was using didn't give enough examples. But i've found another page which i've been working through and so far it's going ok. I can some times understand things Bart writes to me, well i get the gist of what he is saying to me. though so far i haven't been able to reply, but it will come. Just trying to remember the different conjugations for verbs, oh and word order. but i guess with time i won't need to remember, i will just know it.
Lani has again managed to make herself sick through crying, she gets herself in such a state. So no more leaving her. Well she wasn't really being left, she was in the buggy and she fell asleep. She woke up and was crying and i thought if i gave her a few minutes that she would fall asleep again, but she started coughing and Mark came in to pick her up and as he did she was sick into the buggy. She can stand for a coupld of seconds by herself now too.
I'm in a dilemma over getting Kayne tested.
We might be moving to a ground floor flat, the housing officer is coming to see our flat on Thursday - just to make sure we haven't trashed this one, and then when one comes up we can have it.
I've been learning dutch for a couple of weeks. I'm actually starting to 'get it'. I didn't make much progress with the book from the library, and the web page i was using didn't give enough examples. But i've found another page which i've been working through and so far it's going ok. I can some times understand things Bart writes to me, well i get the gist of what he is saying to me. though so far i haven't been able to reply, but it will come. Just trying to remember the different conjugations for verbs, oh and word order. but i guess with time i won't need to remember, i will just know it.
Saturday, 22 September 2007
Oh gosh!
Lani is 9 months old today! I can't believe how quickly that has gone. I remember telling Bart like it was yesterday - that was a weird experience. She is so grown-up now, well not grown-up but you can almost see her learning. She can wave bye-bye, shakes her head when you say no to her.
Kirsty had her baby on the morning of Monday the 17th of September. She had a baby boy, he weighed 5lb 11oz, and they called him Joshua.
Kirsty had her baby on the morning of Monday the 17th of September. She had a baby boy, he weighed 5lb 11oz, and they called him Joshua.
Thursday, 6 September 2007
First day back
first day back to nursery today. Kayne went fine, was like we hadn't left.
Mark is on the 10;30 to 7 shift but it hasn't been as bad as i expected. I have been more organised and so it has been easy, well except that Lani is teething and so she hasn't been going to sleep very easily. Going back to nursery is also going to change the routines again! that we have just got sorted.
I've sorted my head out somewhat. Mark and i talked; Mark feels depressed which doesn't surprise me (secretly it didn't feel right that i felt that bad). He tells me nothing so as to make me feel better - but i know something is wrong and i feel worse because he isn't talking to me. it annoyed me somewhat as we are meant to be a partnership yet sometime i feel that we are together bacuase of Kayne and Lani. Sometimes i have not wanted to be here, i've been wondering if our relationship was over etc. Now i feel better about it all, we have started to talk in the evening and it's been better even in the 2 days that weve done it.
I went to mums the other night for 3 hours and did some scrapbooking. It felt good to do something i wanted to do that was productive. Bart has convinced me that i need to go and do something that makes me feel good, so inspired by something he said i'm going to go swimming on a Friday. What he said was: "like going to the gym for me. I don't always feel like going, but I know, when I'm done, when I'm standing in the shower, I feel my muscles and tiredness and think: 'hey, that was nice, I DID something' ". I'm trying to get Mark to go out and do something as i think that it will be important for him if he feels down.
Mark is on the 10;30 to 7 shift but it hasn't been as bad as i expected. I have been more organised and so it has been easy, well except that Lani is teething and so she hasn't been going to sleep very easily. Going back to nursery is also going to change the routines again! that we have just got sorted.
I've sorted my head out somewhat. Mark and i talked; Mark feels depressed which doesn't surprise me (secretly it didn't feel right that i felt that bad). He tells me nothing so as to make me feel better - but i know something is wrong and i feel worse because he isn't talking to me. it annoyed me somewhat as we are meant to be a partnership yet sometime i feel that we are together bacuase of Kayne and Lani. Sometimes i have not wanted to be here, i've been wondering if our relationship was over etc. Now i feel better about it all, we have started to talk in the evening and it's been better even in the 2 days that weve done it.
I went to mums the other night for 3 hours and did some scrapbooking. It felt good to do something i wanted to do that was productive. Bart has convinced me that i need to go and do something that makes me feel good, so inspired by something he said i'm going to go swimming on a Friday. What he said was: "like going to the gym for me. I don't always feel like going, but I know, when I'm done, when I'm standing in the shower, I feel my muscles and tiredness and think: 'hey, that was nice, I DID something' ". I'm trying to get Mark to go out and do something as i think that it will be important for him if he feels down.
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