It's raining July

Wow, blogging has got all serious of late.
I was just looking again at the pictures of Kaynes sports days (see below), that middle picture? WOW what is going on with his hair?! Actually both Kayne and Lani's hair is getting so long, i'm glad thier hair is a bit curly or you would be able to see that it it comes to between thier shoulder blades.
I bought a new pc game - Settlers ~ Rise of an empire. It is so much fun. I love this series of games...it lets me get out my obsessive planning side with out driving anyone crazy! I've also been working on these Griddler puzzles. Well on the triddlers anyway. They are good fun, you have to use logic like Sudoku. Good brain stretching, and strangely i've been sleeping better since i've been doing them.
Lani and I went to see Stacy and kiddies this morning. Gosh they are so cute! It was good to just chat and drink tea. Lani had good fun playing with Joshua, and i kept any broodiness away by holding Tristen. Oddly i had no desire for another baby which is unusual for me.
Kayne had a taster day today for reception so was there from 9-3:15. It was very wierd, not sure what i'm going to do with myself when he's gone all day in September. I'm trying not to think about it and think more about the things that i'm going to do with Lani, like swimming and music/dance class things that i know she will like that Kayne never did.
Kayne is gaining confidence with reading, he keeps telling me he is very good at words, or that he is a great reader. He read 'passengers' today with no hesitation. He is improving rapidly and i think i'm getting a little left behind!
Lani is still obsessed with frogs! She can spot one a mile away!! I think i'm going to get her some toy frog things...just have to find some first! I'm so tempted to set my BiUbe up again and get some aquatic frogs...though i'm not sure where we could put it.
Hopefully it isn't raining tomorrow so i can go to the library and get some new books. I ordered a set of ten Corgi Pups from 'The book people' so that should be here in the next few days.

Dreams and uptodaysies

I got the new Sims expansion yesterday. It's really pretty, they have worked so so hard on it! I'm really enjoying it at the moment.

Not done much recently. Kayne went to grandmas today. Sold 3 of my 4 nappy auctions. So i made about £60 this week, enough for about 5 Fuzzi bunz :) gonna put the last one on when i send the 3rd set. I might put the Kushies on aswell as i washed them the other day and they took about 2/3 days to dry! I don't like the system very much either. I put Lani in a fuzzi and changed her about 3 hours later. the fleece was a little damp and as I took out the liner is was really wet and i'd double stuffed it so it's really fantastic, to be honest i was really surprised at how good it was! So was Mark, his face was a picture when he realised how wet the 'stuffing' was.

Iolani modeling a red Fuzzi Bunz and 'Baby legs'

I was meant to be gong to Hobby Craft with mum and dad today but i guess they were busy. I was gonna get some more papers and embellishments. I need a new cartridge for my printer as mine seems to print 'streaky' and it's really annoying.

I had a strange dream again, and Oli, Leon, Hayley and Adam were in it. It was wierd something to with a war and to do with not seeing people for a long time. Not really sure what it was about. I had another one about Oli a few weeks ago. Mum told me to go for a walk with him and so i did and i took his hand and we just walked. It was by water and it was so pretty, and i felt love for him. I think it was probably a memory from walking with Mark. The feeling was probably an amplification of what i felt for mark and what i feel for Oli and maybe what he feels for his mum? I know it was a empathic projection as it wasn't from me : it was 'in me' if that makes sense? Also it was kind of the feeling i have for Kayne and Lani, that feeling that i would do anything to make things better. Which how i felt for Mark at the very beginning and what i would do for Oli now.


Mary J. Blige (Bridge), Will Smith - Tell me Why

Souls are captured
Dreams are stolen, hearts are broken
Evil blatantly rewarded,
Hate surrenders, Love exalted
Hope elated, negativity is shorted