Of Tuesday and Wednesday

well i haven't done very much today. I got up late e.g when mark left for work.


Fed Lani, done some drawing with Kayne - his drawing is scary for a nearly 3 year old. We did an alphabet puzzle - i think he is slowly learning the alphabet. We went to the dentist. Rachael sent Lani a wrist rattle in the post.

A picture of Bear

I went to a scrapbooking group with mum for the 2nd week running. I'm starting to enjoy it and getting over the guilt of leaving Mark with both of them. But on the other hand i have them both everyday so why can't i have 2 hours to myself? I have nearly got 2 more pages done. Maybe i'll get them up here eventually.

Music is the healer of the soul. Loving my little playlist at the moment. I'm feeling better today, i guess its the sleep/depression balance - i can cope and conquer it better if i have enough sleep.

Thoughts

hmm... i'm fighting it. I'm sure it's not winning but i'm getting tired of the fight. There's nothing that can help, but i feel i'm getting swamped.

I'm always the one helping others so sometimes i shy away from everyone, my friends, my kids, my parents, Mark, all becuase i get bombared with thier 'stuff' although they don't know it. It's my problem i have to deal with it, understand it and control it but it takes effort and i'm nearly out of it.

Kayne wet the bed last night, the first time since he's been potty trained (3 weeks day/2 weeks night). I wasn't alot and i'm not worried. I was prepared for him just to be dry in the day but he's been doing nights too so that is great, and a few accidents are to be expected.

I sold some cloth nappies, that i got for Kayne when he was little, that i no longer want. I got £20 for the Large size stuff. Theres 3 other auctions running. i hope they sell - then i can buy lots of new nappies for Lani!

Lani is developing at an alarming rate, she's reaching for toys! She is so independant! If she doesn't like it, she'll cry, if she wants something she'll cry until she gets it. I'll have to keep on top of her boundries as she grows thats for sure. If we give and inch she will definately take a mile! She barely sleeps in the day, maybe 2 or 3 20-40 minute naps, thats between 6:30am to 7pm. She will drink 4-6oz every 3 hours and sleeps from 7pm ish to 4am, has a small feed then sleeps from 4am ish till 6:30am.

Lani reaching for a toy

I just wanna post a pic of Mark Baby Wearing (carrying a baby in a sling). I hope to get him to take a pick of me wearing Lani in a wrap.

Mark wearing Lani in a Fleece Corrie pouch

An Introduction

a little more about me:

I'm 22, i have 2 children and a Fiancee that i adore. My Little 'uns are Kayne who is 2 years and 9 months and Iolani who is 2 months. My partner is Mark and we've been together nearly 6 years!

Kayne is an amazing little boy. He does not fit any of the toddler sterotypes at all. He's only had 4 or 5 proper tantrums in his life, which more often than not, are because i didn't understand him rather than he couldn't get his own way. I don't believe that there is such a thing as the 'terrible twos'. His language and vocabulary is incredible, he has well over 400 words at his disposal (which i'm sure is to do with the fact we used baby signs). He can count freely to 12 forwards and back, and higher if promted. His imagination is incredible, i've listened to him 'painting' pictures led in bed at night, 'get some blue paint the sky, get green for grass'.
Kayne is also very quiet, he is wary of loud children and strangers, this is a part of his personality that i'm trying to help him with by sending him to nursery. Although i was wary of sending him too early (he was just over 2 when he started) i realised it was for his benefit.

Iolani (Lani), is gorgeous. She held her head from birth and is trying to sit herself up from a reclined position. She bats at toys now and is very 'chatty'. She has an absolutely b-e-a-utiful smile! We struggled so much with her when she was first born. She was being sick (projectile 2-3 feet), wouldn't lay down, feed every hour, never slept more than an hour at the most, would only sleep on me, had awful wind, green liquid poo, a rash on her face after eating, really watery/gunky eyes bloated tummy. We changed bottles and then milk, which helped somewhat, then we tryied Colief in a low lactose milk and then we worked out that her milk was basically lactose free. so we tried SMA Lactose Free (generally you should only do this on the recommendation of your GP or HV. But ours gave us no help as she was gaining weight). The improvement in her is immense: all her 'symptoms' have gone. Took her to a different GP who agreed to perscribe the milk (£5 for 450g, which lasts about 2-3days). Although after her injections she got watery eyes again (since found out that the Meninngitous C has lactose in it), and they are still watery one week on. so I'm a little worried that she's actually allergic to milk and not Lactose Intolerant, but we shall see.

Hmm. i guess i should write something about me. Well as i said i'm 22. I had Kayne at 19 and Iolani at 21. I've got 2 A-levels, and 1 As. I did the first part of a OU Degree but i decided that the subject (English Literature) wasn't something i want to study, i enjoy reading books and things, but i don't want to study it. I think i'm going to do something to do with child development. I won't be starting until Lani is atleast one and we have enough money, and i've learnt to drive! I don't fit any of the current 'teenage mother' stereotypes. Although i'm not sure i still am a teenager mother as i'm 22, i was when Kayne was born. I could get on a soap box about stereotypes but won't right now, i'll wait until i've been stared at numerous times in the street and give a really good post, hehe...

Love Tasha