I'm feeling rough

I hate having that feeling when you wake up that things aren't going to go right. I took Kayne to school on Friday, we nearly had a funny because there was a new teacher doing his welcome group and he didn't know her. But i managed to settle him with out him getting upset. Got home and did the normal bits and bobs on the pc and cleaning etc. About 10:30 i suddenly thought 'have i been crying?' which i hadn't but my face had that feeling...then my eyes were itchy and i thought damn maybe my hayfever had come back. No; i woke up this morning with my eye glued shut - i think i have conjunctivitis.

I left the meeting feeling a bit crap. I don't think their plan is going to work and i'm so worried that Kayne is going to bare the brunt of it...i don't want to ever see him depressed again. i have a sneaking suspicion that they don't really know what he can do. I felt like i was being scoped for how much i had 'taught' him. It has removed my confidence that i was gaining in the fact that he is different. I was sure we were going to go to the NAGC weekend but now (again) i'm riddled with doubts over whether he fits the 'gifted' label. I'm annoyed with how secretive all this gifted stuff seems...no one will come out and say X,Y and Z, it's winds me up. They said 'he's at the top of the Early years curriculum in academic subjects', ok but does that mean hes in Yr 1 level or what? I mean i can look it up online but i'm not a trained teacher. I'm also not stupid, i am also pretty good at sensing when people are being evasive or not telling me the whole truth. Which is how i felt about what they were saying. Or at least they were hiding something/thinking something about the situation that they weren't saying (paranoia anyone?).



On the other hand he is ok there as he has 'come alive' again in the past week. He talks about everything non stop right now. He told me today ' if I went to town and Grandma went to town and they we that would be a coincidence.' Which was kind of shocking. And 'if you are going to cross the road you must look around and use your conscience. ' We played 4 games of Quixo and he has won 3 times... and i'm not letting him win. I've been thinking about buying him Rush Hour Jr. because he likes the logic puzzles. I guess i'll have to get Checkers out and play with him again, maybe he'll take a little longer to trounce me with that. He's chosing to pick books up and read them. I've noticed him reading in his head occassionally; i was playing a Wii game and he started talking about something one of the ingame characters said except it was written on the screen and not being spoken, so he must have read it.